Driving back from Grafton was reminiscent of 10 years ago - yet
having the kids with me in the car made it surreal, and powerful. The long
drive on the highway after a long day at the hospital, feeling both exhausted
and energized, felt like it did when I drove home from Northwestern in Chicago
after Mark had his kidney-pancreas transplant. It was difficult to leave Mark
at the hospital then, what to me felt like “alone”, but I had to get home to
the then two-year-old Remy and four month old Dax. I wanted to be both places,
but had to choose one. There was nothing I could do whether I was at the
hospital or not. Even tonight I, I know now more than ever that God’s got this.
But I still wish I was there in the room when they come to draw blood or check
a blood pressure. It just “feels” better. However, tonight on the drive home the kids
and I talked. A lot. Man, did we TALK! We talked about my book, what I was
titling it, what the cover would look like, what it was about (would today be
in it?). How would revealing our private life in print to the world make them
feel, what would people say, how would they be treated? We talked about being a
Christian, being salt and light to others. We talked about being persecuted as a
Christian, for standing up for our beliefs. We talked about all that God has
done in our lives, what He is doing right in this moment. We talked about all
the “whys” we’ve experienced. What God is doing with the “whys” in Mark’s and
my life, but also how He’ll use “whys” in their lives, too. We talked and I “preached”
so much, that at one point I was worried I’d missed our exit and was half way
to Green Bay
Things got repeated throughout the day. From stories, to prayers,
to simple conversation – we know this:
No matter the situation or circumstances one thing is
constant – God.
God is the same, yesterday, today, tomorrow.
There are angels among us. Angels are very real.
The Lord uses these situations not just for us, but for
others. Who knows what kind of impact todays’ events might have on others…
Christian’s and non alike.
No amount of thinking or worry is going to change what God
has already written. So we pray!
So, today Mark and Remy played in a benefit softball
tournament for Living Hope International through our church Word of Grace. They
had already played two games and had had a long break. Mark had been having
high blood sugars, and when they started to play the third game, Mark started
getting severe cramps in his legs. He said he had never felt anything like it,
ever before. The weather was extremely sunny and hot today, but Mark was
staying hydrated and just could not make sense of it all. So, he took himself
out of the game, and felt like he was going to be sick. He did not get sick,
but made it to the bathroom and sat in a chair near the restrooms, I guess. He
sat down and felt he was going to pass out, but only remembers coming to with
everyone around him while he was flat on the concrete. Paramedics came and checked
his blood sugar and apparently Mark was talking to them and others, but he does
not remember it. When in the ambulance, they did an EKG and did not like the
result, and started asking the heart attack questions… nausea, pain in chest, numbness,
etc. Transport then changed from the local hospital to one a half hour away, as
it is better equipped to handle a heart attack situation. Mark was given two
bags of fluids in the ambulance and when they did the EKG at the hospital it
looked good. Mark was still not in any pain, more like uncomfortable from the
leg cramping. They drew up a ton of blood work for every function you can think
of. The triponin level was elevated. This tells them about muscle damage to the
heart. This level is rechecked three or
so times during a certain amount of time – like 12 hours or something. There
was concern that if this level rises, they would want to do testing to look at
the heart. This would require dye, and with his kidney post-transplant, he
would require extra monitoring. They would move him to another hospital that
was more equipped to handle a transplant patient. So there was potential of Mark
being moved. So I got worried when the second level of triponin was also
elevated. The nurse said when we left this evening that the Doctor had not
called back about the levels, so at that time no news was good news. There
still needs to be a few more labs to be done to draw a conclusion on the whole
heart attack thing. Mark remains at the hospital tonight for monitoring. He had
been moved to a room, eaten dinner and had a visit with our Pastor and his wife
and my parents (they brought insulin pump supplies from home as Mark needed a
site change! Of course he did!) He has remained
alert, never in any pain and considering today’s events - doing quite well.
Thank you for all prayers. Keep them coming. I’ll keep you
posted.
